Hmm!!

Thinking of an appropriate title for this rant would not work. I plan to jump all over the place because I have to vent.

Today I buried a friend of mine in Colby Hovde. Colby and I were not as close as most of his friends, but he managed to touch my life. He was a left-handed golfer like myself and always told me us leftys need to stick together!. Most people get to a funeral and the whole goal is to not cry. Today I cried and I can give a shit less who thinks this is bad. I will miss Colby and can only pray that his family can get through this without too much suffering.

Colby was 17 and one of the best golfers I have ever had the privilage to play with.

Today was my last day with Sunterra. I really enjoyed working there and will miss everyone, but I need to start moving forward before my brain dies of boredom. Thank you to Darwin for the letting me work with you this year.

I really feel sad for Kelly Sayer, a good close personal friend of mine, as today he also buried one of his best friends. I wanted so bad to give him a hug, but he was still holding onto his last strand that allowed him not to cry!!poor bastard.

My wife is an amazing person. She manages to go through life with such a positive outlook and present all around her with some of the best ideas. I am lucky to have such a wonderful person in my life. I love her with all my heart and can’t say it to her enough.

There were plenty of people from Killam at the funeral today. It still makes me feel weird to see people from there because I have been away so long and left some bad blood! there with my EX and all. You would think with how small the world is, I would see more people from there all the time.

I have come to the conclusion that I am crazy. Sometimes I have some thoughts go through my head while driving alone that even scare me. Has anyone else ever thought something and then sat back and said:

Thank God no one else heard that or they would lock me up!!

This often happens to me. Sometimes I imagine that something would happen and try to guage how I would react to that “something“. This has led me to the conclusion that I am an emotional creature and could find myself doing something stupid if pressed. Fuck it, you heard it here first. I don’t intend to change anytime soon.

I remember something that I heard in Jerry McGuire!:

I love my life and I love my wife and I wish you my kind of happiness!!

Wow, what a mouthful. Some of the best things that come out of people’s mouths and so simple and can mean so much.

Today, I feel like there is a piece missing out of me. Maybe there is a hole in my life and I cannot see it right now. Maybe I am just tired. Maybe I have already lost my mind a long time ago and just run through each day in my head and I am actually in a hospital bed with head injuries.

I have found that singing is a way for me to vent my emotions and helps me from not crying. ~NOTE TO SELF FOR FUTURE PROBLEMS~

Brad has some love life problems and I tried to help the other day with giving him some information. Information is better than advise as it gets you off the hook when shit blows up, while advise implicates you.

JUST THE FACTS, JUST THE FACTS!

Either way, whether it implicates me or not is not even a possibility I have imagined as it would only drain my thoughts. I need as many as I can keep inside my head!!..

I confessed in the beginning of this shit that this would have no direction and make zero sense.

Later I intend to work on my site and try and figure out AMERICAN GIRLS! by Counting Crows. I feel that song would suit my musical touch and the voice would suit both Tammy and myself. A great DUET so to speak.

Training would be good for me right now!!.problem is, I would rather drink beer. A remedy that spells injury. Maybe I will flip a coin and see which I should do. Maybe I will “crack a beer” and then flip the coin!!!!!!!

I’m sure no one is reading this rant to this point, but if you did manage to finish reading this shit, please comment with something that doesn’t make sense at all. Hopefully it will not even be relevant to this crap on screen. That way, I know you were listening!

Been Busy!!

Updates are coming later!!.hopefully tonight. Do not fret!!..I am still around.

Just in case I cannot update tonight, here is some words of wisdom for those of you not yet married!!.

I heard of a guy who was always getting pressure from his family about getting married. Especially from his aunts and uncles. At every wedding that he would attend, his aunts and uncles would give him a nudge and say YOU’RE NEXT!!

He got them to stop!!.want to know how?

He started nudging them and saying YOU’RE NEXT! at every funeral that they would attend!

New Inspirational Song

I was listening to the radio today and heard a great new song by NINE DAYS called Good Friend!. It is a song about losing, or at least the possibility of losing, a good friend. I have always been impressed with NINE DAYS and have had previous rants about If I Am!, one of my favorite songs.

I have decided to place the lyrics here for everyone to look over. I recommend checking out the song!

Nine Days - Good Friend!

I used to think that you were someone else
Then I’d lose my mind each day
I used to think that I could help myself
But it’s true, what they say
There is no reason without way

This is goodbye to you and me
What a good friend you’ve been to me
I owe it all to you
Every good thing that I do is you

I used to wish that I was someone else
Then I’d dream away the day
Those dreams have made me into someone new
But it’s true, what they say
There is no better time than today

If this is goodbye to you and me
What a good friend you’ve been to me
I owe it all to you
Every good thing that I do is you

I am here
I need to say
I will miss you
Everyday

And it’s true, what they say
There is no better time than today

If this is goodbye to you and me
What a good friend you’ve been to me
If this is goodbye to you and me
What good friends we’ll always be
I owe it all to you
Every good thing that I do is you
Every good thing that I do is you

Is you

Every good thing that I do is you

It’s you

I owe it all to you
Every good thing that I do is you

What a great song!!thank you again to Nine Days for their inner thoughts!!