Happy 1 Year Anniversary!
March 23, 2003 by trent
Filed under just ranting
Today is my first wedding anniversary! I love you Tammy!
Lost Interest Today
March 22, 2003 by trent
Filed under just ranting
Sometimes I wanna kill
Sometimes I wanna die
Sometimes I wanna destroy
Sometimes I wanna cry
Sometimes I could get even
Sometimes I could give up
Sometimes I could give
Sometimes I never give a fuck
Like now!!
Rock Star
March 21, 2003 by trent
Filed under just ranting
I was fortunate enough to be able to sit down and catch some of the movie Rock Star this afternoon. After spending countless hours today busting my ass on our business plan, I deserved a small break.
This movie has some parts of it that don’t really get me all that excited. I don’t think that I would have ever fit into the typical “rock star’ life that these guys wanted to maintain. I would not be like them.
The main character found out that he didn’t want to be like them either and went back to his old friends to startup a band with his own music at the end of the movie. Back to songwriting and good clean fun. I was moved by this. Even though I am sure that he didn’t actually write the song he sang at the end, I do think it was moving none the same.
I want to write again. I need to write again. This weekend will have the guitar coming with us because Tammy and I are due for a song. Maybe I will write it on my own. I just need to be inspired.
Wrote My First Plugin!
March 10, 2003 by trent
Filed under technology
While I did change Karma’s plugin to use as my own for the referral script from different sites, today I did write my own Nucleus plugin based off the code from 4 different plugins already written. It is NP_OnThisDay.php and it shows a link to all entries written 1 year prior to the current date. That will come in handy when my journal gets over 1 year old!!soon!
I am so proud of myself since I don’t know a fucking thing about programming in PHP and MySql!
Maybe It Is Not Just Me!
March 5, 2003 by trent
Filed under just ranting
This was the best thing I read all day. Worried about the link not being there for long, so I posted it here anyways.
perfection leads to mediocrity
I give up.
That’s right. I give up.
I care so much about how things work that I never get anything done. I want everything to be perfect all the time and if it can’t be perfect then I won’t accept it at all. This method of thought applies to every aspect of my life. All of this time I laughed in their faces because I didn’t care; I was the guy who did things right. What I didn’t realize was that I was also the guy who wasn’t getting anything done.
When I was in high school, everyone else was getting laid while I was saying I’m sorry but I can’t see you anymore! to one of the most fun, most attractive girls I’d ever dated because I was too worried about hurting Miss Right’s feelings (who turned out to be Miss very very very very wrong).
After high school, all my friends went off to college to earn degrees and enjoy the college life. Meanwhile, since I couldn’t pick the perfect school that was affordable and could still offer me the best education available in the fields of Chemistry and Theater, I settled for Community College to give me time to make up my mind. I did this despite the hundreds (yes!! hundreds) of full-ride scholarships I was offered by many very good institutions.
When my place of employment gave raises to the people I supervised despite the fact that I hadn’t received a raise since I began work there two years prior I stayed where I was because I couldn’t find the perfect job. Eventually, I quit because another job basically fell in my lap. Then the tech job market got hot and everyone who was anyone was earning their fame, fortune, and reputation by jumping on board with the fat salaried dot coms. But not me. I stayed where I was at a job that I hated with a company that I couldn’t stand because I couldn’t find a job that offered me exactly what I wanted.
Even now, this very day, instead of pouring my thoughts and words onto these digital pages as I’ve always intended, I offer short links and half-hearted commentary on a very irregular basis because I can’t find the perfect blogging engine.
I am doomed to be mediocre because I insist on perfection in every aspect of my life.
Something has to change.
But it won’t. That’s just it. I’ll never be able to find the perfect mixture between all! and nothing!, and it will remain in this medicore state until I do.
Sometimes perfection doesn’t work. Ok, often it doesn’t work. There is nothing wrong with what my grandpa Adams always told Dad:
If you don’t know what to do, at least do something.!
Words of wisdom!!
